Last night I sat at the kitchen table eating icecream with three little kids. They were talking my ear off about baseball games, fireworks, and spiderman. Despite all of the happiness and fun conversation around me, my mind kept returning to the house I spent the day in. Flashes of the white doors and white moldings, covered in black dust; flooring and walls removed; the initial walk through= solemn, quiet, reverent; Deanna crying from the depths of her soul, fighting to come back to the surface but drowning in the sorrow for the loss of the person that meant the world to her; A house once filled with excitement and energy, now standing hollow and still--yet echoing a quiet whisper of a life's end.
My friend Travis Alexander was found murdered in his home this week. I feel shocked and sad. I just keep shaking my head the more I discover. Who would take another life and in such a violent manner? Travis was a good person. He worked hard to become a person that everyone loved. He went to church, attended the temple, read an endless amount of LDS church related literature. He loved to quote the scriptures and he truly loved the Lord. He spent every morning creating a list of goals and would check them off as his day progressed. It was haunting to find his last index card. He didn't have a chance to check one item off.
As I sat at that table, watching those kids as we ate icecream, it was hard to believe that there was actually happiness outside of the sorrow and horror I had experienced the three days previous. I forgot that life actually still goes on and there are people out there that are still experiencing all kinds of wonderful things.
So I went to the temple today and I was reminded of the larger picture. Our time here on earth is such a small part of it all. So really, as awful as it is for Travis to have died the way he did, I'm actually happy for him. He's in a place that is more wonderful than we could possibly imagine. He is happy to be there and he could not care less about the things he left behind--his house, his furniture, his car. As far as people he left behind, he loves them so so much and he took that love with him. The time between us seeing him again will seem long, but to him it will be so very short. As much as we will miss him, we can forge ahead and find happiness again. We will experience wonderful things and feel joy and peace. I already find peace and joy in knowing without a doubt that we live beyond this life.

Yesterday I put all of my clothes in bags and threw them off of my balcony. I felt like I was kicking my boyfriend out but I was really just avoiding carrying all of those bags down the stairs to my car. So my move has begun. This morning when I woke up it felt like Christmas! I guess you could say I'm a little excited to be moving.
A couple of nights ago at Origins, I helped this lady. As I was putting make up on her, she asked me how old I was and then proceeded to tell me her words of wisdom. I have to share them because it was funny--she was sitting in the chair, her head leaning against the make up display, and she was falling asleep. Imagine trying to put eyeliner on someone with their head cocked to the side like that.
1. Never let yourself get out of shape.
2. Take care of your teeth
3. Save your money
4. If the builder asks you if you want extra insulation, take it.
Great words of wisdom. Good times.

It's ON.
I'm moving! I'm moving! I'm moving!
Yes, I'm a little excited. I've been trying to make Nevada work for me...made a solid effort to make myself a permanent resident but alas, I came to the conclusion that I needed to move away much to the chagrin of my poor roommate.
JUNE 15th I should be back, moved in, and ready to go. I will be living in Riverside with my parents(cough) and working at this salon like a block and a half away. I will be able to walk there which is good for two reasons. 1. gas is like $800/gallon 2. exercise
I like living with my parents actually. I have my own space and can do my own thing and when we do cross paths, I get along with them pretty dang well.
SO when you need to recommend a hair and makeup artist to someone in the 951, send 'em on over! The salon I'm going to be in is cool and the owner is totally cool. It's pretty much everything I've been looking for so I'm way excited.
side note: I just finished Stephenie Meyer's vampire series. I read Twilight last year and just hadn't gotten around to the other two b/c I didn't really like Twilight all that much. But after reading New Moon and Eclipse, I would have to say I like the series. Her writing got SO MUCH better towards the end. My advice to someone who hasn't read it would be to pretend that all three were one big book and to not give up and just read through them all. I realize that you all will hate me for saying this but I think I'm a Jacob fan. I wasn't until the very end of Eclipse. I don't know....we'll have to see how the fourth book pans out!

This weekend I went to my good friend Liz's wedding in LA. I'm pretty good friends with all of Liz's family and they all obsess over my full name. It's not Tracy--It's Tracy Lee Green with every address. Actually lately, it's been TLG a lot. Dr Tray kinda came and went. So even if some of the extended family didn't know my face, all I had to say was my full name and they knew exactly who I was.
It was a smaller wedding than I'm used to and I was right there in the middle of all of the action. I did like everyone's hair and even did some makeup. It was fun but a lot of work! I was exhausted by the end of the day--to the point that I wanted to cry. But I didn't. Just kidding I did. When Liz and her sisters and cousins did this polynesian dance that I can't remember the name to, I cried. It was so pretty and all I could think about was how cool it was that they are keeping the traditions of their culture alive.
I think I've been to one too many sealings because I had to really focus on being reverent when we were sitting in the sealing room waiting to start. I was trying not to make faces at everyone and run over and whisper silly things in their ears. It was a good thing they started when they did! I made it through without crying until the end. After that, my roudy insides came crashing out and I told Deanna that I wasn't crying, it was just raining on my face.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=64a_1fWTsls
It was painful to not laugh after that.
Lately the thing that makes me really tear up in the ceremony is at the end when the sealer tells you all of the blessings you are going to recieve from having made those special covenants. I'm so happy for Liz and Rob! ....and everyone else and their mom that's decided to up and get married this year. heart you all!

So I was really excited to go to the mailbox and see a card that wasn't a wedding announcement. My aunt randomly sent this one. Isn't it funny?

It says 'the search for mr. right continues....'

I love you Aunt Diane!

It's summer time so I'm getting my summer on!

Flip Flops 24/7
Bathing suit almost 24/7
pool
laying out
reading
bbq
disneyland!
MAYBE moving back to CA but big fat maybe

There is not enough time to work so maybe I just won't...

So I totally went to Disneyland on Monday. I bought a season pass so for all of you that have the socal select pass and want to go ANYTIME, let me know. That place is TRULY the happiest place on earth. I really think they are siphoning laughing gas in to the air. I was in the FOULEST of foul moods and as soon as we got in to that parking lot, BAM! Happy, happy Tracy. I could tell several funny stories like how these boys thought me and Dano were lesbians b/c we were sharing a Matterhorn car. But another time. My favorite story by far was the one that gave me the biggest head, of course. We were totally exhausted after wandering the park for 6 hours and decided to go in and watch this movie: Disneyland, the first 50 years hosted by Steve Martin. We were waiting inside this large room, full of Disney paraphernalia when Dano convinced me to come over and watch this little slide show of disney characters through the years. So I sat down on this bench next to her and these 17 year oldish boys, and waited to see the really effed up mickey/minny mouse characters. All of a sudden I see one of the boys jump up from the bench. I looked up at him and he was looking back at me with this expression of complete shock on his face. He gained composure, almost unable to speak and said, "Oh my gosh! I'm sorry! I totally thought you were Cameron Diaz!" It seriously made not only my whole day, but my whole freakin year. I made Danielle take a picture of me right then.

So does that mean I am hot enough to make out with Jude Law??? or date Justin T??? teenage girl scream---ahhhhhhhh!!!

My phone had a melt down this weekend and I lost most of my phone numbers....if you get a chance, send me a text with your name so I can save you again!

Ya know it's funny how the choices we make everyday have such a ripple effect on not only our own lives but other peoples. Like if I had gone to Hawaii last September with one of my friends, he most likely would not be getting married on a day very soon that will remain unnamed. There was no way that he or I would have ever known the consequence of that choice. It's crazy to remember and feel, almost if you just went back in time, and you're looking at the future or what is going on right now and thinking wow ok, now I see why.
I just made a choice. It was probably the hardest thing that I've ever had to do because right now, I am back in time and I can't see the future and think wow ok, now I see why. I basically had to pass up probably the coolest job offer I've ever had and hope that the ripple effect will be all for the best. I'm so thankful that right now, I feel totally at peace.

Wedding morning--all was super calm. We got her ready and out the door on time!

Super happy couple.

Cute little vintage bride.

oh look--yes I was really there. Steph and baby James, Mom and Dad

close up just before reception. pretty! pretty!

I had to do fingerwaves for my state board exam in CA. I practiced on my mom the day before...pretty sweet.

Yes, it's POISON. In the late 80's, I remember sitting in the family room, watching MTV with my brother and sisters. This is back when they used to play music videos. Was that a guy or a girl singing? Long hair on a BOY? bandanas? leather? what is this? It was Axel Rose singing Sweet Child O Mine. The more I saw it, the more I liked it and from there I became a total butt rock/hair band fan. I couldn't get enough of Poison, Motley Crue, Winger, AC/DC, Van Halen, Guns and Roses, Scorpions, etc etc. (Don't worry, I still listened to New Kids at the same time.) I thought the earrings, big hair, and make up thing was totally bizarre but I was in to it all the same. It wasn't really until grunge rock came around that I started to form crushes on singers so I never really found this whole look as attractive:

But HOLY CRAP have you seen ROCK OF LOVE with BRETT MICHAELS??? I now see what all of the older girls were freaking out over.

All of a sudden, this week, I've had a MAJOR crush on Brett. I think he is dripping with sex appeal and I am now constantly flipping over to VH1, just hoping a rerun of rock of love is playing or a commercial or SOMETHING.

Oh Brett, I love you.

Today was marathon wedding day. My cousin Alison got married and yours truly was the stylist--the hair, the makeup, the dress. It was so much fun! I overheard so many people say how beautiful she looked and I just stood by and thought to myself, ya, I did that! My dad put it best by saying she looked straight out of a vintage vanity fair magazine. I can't wait to post pictures! So some highlights of the day were, performing a choreographed dance in front of 350 people, sitting at a table of awkward single 30-ish year olds, and Uncle Alan trying to set me up with a married guy. It sounds like I'm being sarcastic but they really were the best parts of the day!
Dance: Alison and Eric decided to make up a dance after being inspired by the salt and pepa push it video--you tube it. So the song was a Junior Senior dity and in the end it looked like we were in the thriller video--not because we looked like zombies although maybe I did--but because we surprised the crowd and jumped in and started dancing with Alison and Eric about 1/2 way in to the song, moving all together. It was seriously so fun!
Awkward table: I appreciate the gesture here--let's put the people that are single together so that they can find a match and unsingle themselves. However, at 30 we all feel uncomfortable with ourselves no matter what because we are all thinking the same thing: there is always a reason why a person hasn't been married before 30 but I'm def not included in that statistic. So all of these people are a bunch of weirdos and I'm the only normal one. Let me back up on this story really quick. When I realized that my seating assignment was different from the rest of my family, I just about died. I knew what was coming and I was the first one at the table. Uncle Alan + his whole family was at the next table and they kept offering to have me come and sit with them but I declined saying thanks but I'm not going to fix it, I'm just going to complain about it. So as the table filled up, I noticed that they were all watching and giving winks and nods of approval at the obviously single boys now filling the seats beside me. After the table was full and we had been sitting there a while, Alan came waltzing over, leaned over and said to me just loud enough for some to hear: Tracy, would you still like to come over and sit with us? I wanted to sink under the table. I mean really, how do you get out of that??? As Ali came by to greet us she asked us if we had found our eternal companion at the table yet. I think I was the only one that really laughed while every one else got really uncomfortable. I love these stories!
Uncle Alan: The first time he embarrassed me was at the luncheon after the temple. He had been talking about some guys that he wants to set me up with and said that there was even one guy there at the wedding that they thought I would like. I didn't think much of it until I realized who it was. We were sitting around chatting when this particular individual walked by. Alan called out, Hey Bryce! Have you met Tracy yet? It was too late. I couldn't do anything but say, yes, we met sort of last night and hope that Alan wouldn't say anything more. After a minute or two of chit chat, Bryce walked away. Alan asked Well??? and I replied, He's MARRIED!!! But good try. I should have just played it off and called Alan out on the spot in front of Bryce but I was too flustered to think to do it.
Ah I love family weddings...June 7th is another one!!!!!

This one goes out to my man, GEORGE.
Dear George,
I just want to thank you for cooking my chicken to perfection EVERY TIME. It's truly amazing and I am just dying to know how you do it! My life will never be the same considering I now make chicken every time I work at Origins--where you are now living. I will never forget the day when Danielle brought you home from work and I thought she was crazy to have kept you there--not because I was missing out on you but because I wondered what all the fuss was about. Why was it so important to have you there? It was only when I started working there too that I realized how important it is to make freshly grilled loveliness for dinner instead of heating something nasty up in the microwave or spending what it takes to make in an hour on restaurant food. My life is now complete thanks to you.
hugs and kisses,
me



ok ok, YES I just worked an 8 hour shift and YES I'm a little delirious. For most people, working that amount of time is totally normal. For me it is, however, the past few months I've worked on a bunch of different things in that time period--do hair for a few hours, go to Origins for a few hours, sew for a few hours. So doing all Origins is a bit crazy for me. I'm more exhausted than working a 12 hour day of all three jobs. How is that???

I walked out in to the kitchen to give danielle a scare with my hannibal lecter origins face mask and was met with her black charcoal mask...

I took a color personality test a few years back and discovered that I was a 'white' with a 'red' as a close second. Taking the test made me think back through my life at my behavior. I've always been shy and super low key but there have been times where I've been really passionate about something and unleashed myself. I kinda thought that was cool and was proud to tell people my colors. Being red meant that I wasn't afraid to stand up for myself or speak my mind and white meant that I didn't ever do that so I felt like maybe there was a balance and I would only really speak up when it was important. It's only been recently that I realized being passive aggressive isn't necessarily a good thing. I let things go and in theory want to pick my battles (aka: avoid confrontation) so I don't pick any until the same battle builds up and I explode. I am a scorpio and born in the year of the dragon=calm on the outside+violent storm on the inside. I'm seriously a walking time bomb! Why am I writing about this? Probably because I actually had the courage to stick up for myself and say exactly how I felt before I exploded. I'm growing!

So my friend Jeff was in a marathon on Saturday morning and he convinced me to come along. I'm not really sure why he wanted me there....maybe to entertain him after he was finished?
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=11071833781&subj=803224777
He did a great job running. I was super spiritual and read the Ensign until he was finished. Oh and I took pictures of some different cactus--err cacti? and the red mountains since we were at Red Rock.
We had to leave at 5am so I was up at 445am. Since then, sleeping in is nearly impossible. Yesterday and today I was awake by 7am. My life is ruined! Now I can't stay up late with Danielle to watch LOST (we are almost done with season 2). I could barely keep my eyes open past 11pm last night! Oh the mutiny!

So I happened to watch Conan last night and was super excited when I found out that Will Arnett was going to be on...Will is better known to some as GOB Bluth. I think he is so hilarious and this interview was--wow--just check it out!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=z8kSZ9tbxIU
Flava Flave was on too. He was wearing a lot of fur and a bear hat---yes, a bear hat. I think my favorite part was his idea of a romantic date--Benihana's and bowling. So now we know why there is a Flavor of Love THREE.

I told Kim that I was going to list all of the jobs that I've had because let's face it, I've done a lot of random stuff! (this is just for fun because I can write whatever I want)
Hair and Make-up Artist
Wedding dress maker/alterations
Origins--retail!
Hans Klok--wig lady
Hale Theater--hair/make-up designer for all productions
Hale Theater--door manager
Sperry Van Ness--admin assis
Knox--full on data entry
Hartford--sold life insurance in the bay area
Catering--love those quinceneras(sp?)
Berret Talega Pest Control--secretary. I now hate everyone that freaks out over bugs.
Donna Karen--alterations
Aleeda Wetsuits--secretary, shipper, inventory
The Great Steak--waitress, cook
Cougar Eat--ew fast food(only lasted a month)
House Cleaning lady--I cleaned this lady's house every week in Orem and my future bro in law's house sometimes...
Wolf Mountain--sports desk: sold tickets and lessons
Beach Access--retail
The Jewelry Outlet--retail for papa. I sold expensive jewelry! good times!
Luman Green and Sons--retail for papa
Luman Green Jewelers--retail for papa
Babysitter--I babysat for EVERYONE all of the time from the time I was 10 to like whatever.

So there it is. My career life. What else should I do?

I've been tagged by kim and alicia so here ya go:
10 years ago: I was in my second to last semester at byu. I was watching xfiles every week and the guy I had accidentally fallen for told me that he got back together with his x girl and was going to marry her.
5 things to do today: photoshoot with Emily, sew Ali's dress, sew Ali's dress, sew Ali's dress, and sew Ali's dress.
I enjoy: listening to the White Stripes really loud in my car!
If I were suddenly made a billionaire: I would dedicate my life to helping the orphans.
5 jobs I've had: waitress, secretary, insurance sales, admin assis, wig mistress
5 things people don't know about me: I am addicted to Lost season 1 this week. I am terrified of commitment. I don't like candy-just chocolate. I watch the View sometimes. When I was little I would get a piece of kraft cheese and put mustard all over it and eat it--my sis would make fun of me but I loved it!