Wednesday, June 25, 2008

1. I love the salon I'm working at. It's so chill and there's no drama. It's perfect! So far I've had clients every day--3/3. Gotta keep it up! Refer your 909 dwelling friends. I know they're out there!
2. I have had some time to do some reading in between clients. I must say that I learned quite a bit in today's reading session...I read Cosmo for the first time in like probably 15 years. I've never had so many incredulous thoughts before:
You can do that?
Really, they like that?
You want me to do what?
Are you sure?
Skip that page.
I've never felt so naive and kinky all at the same time in my life. I wonder how for real it all is...would love to read anyone's thoughts on this one...haha!
3. My sister Michelle had baby number 4 today. So now she has 4 girls and my other sister Stephanie has 4 boys. Cutest kids in my world! Can't wait to meet the latest. She came C section--kinda crazy b/c the others were all out the--um ya. Anyway, I'm an auntie again!
4. I found out today that my ex that I loved and wanted to marry 3 1/2 years ago, is getting married. I'm really pissed off about it--not because I want to marry him but because he's getting married before me. He was the one with all of the stupid issues and was all messed up. (I know, I don't know why I wanted to marry that either) So now I'm just mad. Life is so not fair EVER.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Last night I sat at the kitchen table eating icecream with three little kids. They were talking my ear off about baseball games, fireworks, and spiderman. Despite all of the happiness and fun conversation around me, my mind kept returning to the house I spent the day in. Flashes of the white doors and white moldings, covered in black dust; flooring and walls removed; the initial walk through= solemn, quiet, reverent; Deanna crying from the depths of her soul, fighting to come back to the surface but drowning in the sorrow for the loss of the person that meant the world to her; A house once filled with excitement and energy, now standing hollow and still--yet echoing a quiet whisper of a life's end.
My friend Travis Alexander was found murdered in his home this week. I feel shocked and sad. I just keep shaking my head the more I discover. Who would take another life and in such a violent manner? Travis was a good person. He worked hard to become a person that everyone loved. He went to church, attended the temple, read an endless amount of LDS church related literature. He loved to quote the scriptures and he truly loved the Lord. He spent every morning creating a list of goals and would check them off as his day progressed. It was haunting to find his last index card. He didn't have a chance to check one item off.
As I sat at that table, watching those kids as we ate icecream, it was hard to believe that there was actually happiness outside of the sorrow and horror I had experienced the three days previous. I forgot that life actually still goes on and there are people out there that are still experiencing all kinds of wonderful things.
So I went to the temple today and I was reminded of the larger picture. Our time here on earth is such a small part of it all. So really, as awful as it is for Travis to have died the way he did, I'm actually happy for him. He's in a place that is more wonderful than we could possibly imagine. He is happy to be there and he could not care less about the things he left behind--his house, his furniture, his car. As far as people he left behind, he loves them so so much and he took that love with him. The time between us seeing him again will seem long, but to him it will be so very short. As much as we will miss him, we can forge ahead and find happiness again. We will experience wonderful things and feel joy and peace. I already find peace and joy in knowing without a doubt that we live beyond this life.

Friday, June 06, 2008

Yesterday I put all of my clothes in bags and threw them off of my balcony. I felt like I was kicking my boyfriend out but I was really just avoiding carrying all of those bags down the stairs to my car. So my move has begun. This morning when I woke up it felt like Christmas! I guess you could say I'm a little excited to be moving.
A couple of nights ago at Origins, I helped this lady. As I was putting make up on her, she asked me how old I was and then proceeded to tell me her words of wisdom. I have to share them because it was funny--she was sitting in the chair, her head leaning against the make up display, and she was falling asleep. Imagine trying to put eyeliner on someone with their head cocked to the side like that.
1. Never let yourself get out of shape.
2. Take care of your teeth
3. Save your money
4. If the builder asks you if you want extra insulation, take it.
Great words of wisdom. Good times.